I hate to feel like I’m being negative all the time. But there is very little positive about our finances right now.

I’m behind on the bills again, and Pumpkin’s birthday is almost here. We’re going to try to get her a bike, but we’ll be lucky if we can. And if we do, that will probably be all we can get her. I hate being broke.

I’m cutting back everywhere I can find an opportunity to do so. It looks like I’ll have to get my cell phone cut off. I don’t use it much, but I hate not having one. We live in a very rural area, and if I were to get a flat tire or something out in the middle of nowhere I would be scared half to death. It wouldn’t be so bad if I were alone, but if Pumpkin was with me I would likely go into hysterics if I couldn’t call for help quickly without having to go knocking on some stranger’s door.

If things don’t start looking up pretty soon, I guess I’m going to have to go back to work outside the home. If I do that and keep writing when I’m not working elsewhere, maybe we won’t have to struggle so much. Constant 18 hour work days are tough, but they’re beginning to look better and better compared to what we’re going through now.